Psalm 39:4 “Show me, LORD, my life’s end and the number of my days; let me know how fleeting my life is.
Psalm 139: 16 “Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.”
I love, appreciate and respect science. I appreciate the advances made in medicine — probably now more than ever. Lately, I have been thinking a lot about numbers…
- the stage “number” that I have been given in my cancer diagnosis…
- the number of years/prognosis that are common with this cancer.
- The numbers in my blood work results that give me a sense for how much or how little cancer is in my body.
- The number of lymph nodes that came back positive for cancer.
- The number of lymph nodes left in my body that may or may not have microscopic cancer spread in them.
- My calcitonin and CEA ‘numbers’ pre-surgery and now, I await to know what the numbers are post-surgery that will tell me how truly successful my surgery was…
But more than a human’s value of numbers are the value of numbers that come from my Creator and Healer. I can spend all of my time and energy focusing on the numbers that come back in the latest CT scan or blood test, but my heart needs to focus on God’s perfect measurements and value of numbers. He has numbered my days. He knows. I don’t.
Trusting God’s mathematics more than mine or someone else’s allows me to spend my time and days pursuing Him and not answers that aren’t certain. I am absolutely going to allow the numbers of science to give me a framework of what to expect, but I will not make these numbers an idol. Instead, I hope to make the most of each day and seek God with all of my heart, mind, and strength.
Psalm 90:12 “Teach us to number our days, that we may gain a heart of wisdom.”